so far...

Okay so yesterday I started my dukan diet.
I am feeling okay, possibly a little tired but not too bad. I brought plenty of food but I am getting through it. Yesterday I ate oat bran and yogurt for breakfast, ham, crab meat, hard boiled egg, cottage cheese and yogurt for lunch... all by themselves. Yuck but I stuck at it. For dinner we went out to a restaurant where I was very brave and asked the waiter if they could do anything that wasn't battered of deep fried, and not steak. Got it! Pan Fried fish - it was delish! so i didn't break down (thank goodness couln't have that on the first day). I think generally waiters are alright if you tell them you need something specific. I went to the gym and felt rather tired but that was okay.

So I am looking at a website, which I will post on here later, than gives lots of different recipes for nice-ish food on the attack phase of the diet. So my shopping list is set - I am getting salmon and prawns and mussels yummy!

Taking the leap

So for many years I have struggled with my weight, many a times I have tried to get myself on the right track. I did weight watchers when I was 17 to try and resolve my issues and for a short time it did work but calculating and counting points everyday gets a little tedius after awhile.
I am great at giving advice to others about what they should or shouldn't do (about everything not just weight managment) but look at me, I wouldn't take advice from myself!

Recently I joined the gym, and while I am there I enjoy it, I even get small cravings for exercise. But some way or another I always am able to come up with an excuse; I am tired, I am not feeling well, I will just have a rest day, I don't have time. The list is endless. Then with food; I went to the gym so I can eat a block of chocolate, it isn't that unhealthy it only has a little cream in it, I will finish this then no more, it's hard when my partner eats what ever he likes, I deserve a treat. Blah blah blah. Excuses excuses excuses! I seem to be very good at justifying things to myself and others.

It is time I stopped to think about what I really want. I want need to loose weight because where I am now makes me feel terrible both physically nd mentally. I think I am in denial that my weight is okay beacuse I can still (only just) fit into 'normal' clothing. But still I feel unwell a lot of the time, I struggle with what I want to wear, I don't like going out with friends as I feel like people are looking at me (even though I know I am probably the last thing on a strangers mind).

So now, I am committing myself. Starting Monday 9th (after over endulging and making myself sick on easter chocolate) I am going to begin the Dukan diet, and exercise programme, and get myself sorted. The school holidays are starting for two weeks so it will give me time to get my head around things. This blog is a means of keeping myself accountable and getting support from others and maybe supporting some too.

Please don't judge me, I do that to myself enough. I will be very open and honest.
Please leave me a message if you can help me/ I can help you/ questions/ answers/ thoughts/ feelings /ANYTHING.